“When we hold each other, in the darkness, it doesn’t make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we feel not safe, but better. “It’s all right” we whisper, “I’m here, I love you.” and we lie: “I’ll never leave you.” For just a moment or two the darkness doesn’t seem so bad.”
— Neil Gaiman, Neil Gaiman’s Midnight Days

I go by the name bobo
All I do is sit around and eat and be sad, I'm basically a more annoying version of a plant.
I'm also extremely obsessed with cats.
And going out with a phat potato

'I'm not going to tell you to get over it, I'm going to help your through it.'

Alice
Anita
Fionaa
Danni
My better half
Tammy
Wendy

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my eyes hurt and i keep thinking too much. I sometimes wonder how better life would be without emotions and feelings. only then, will nothing hurt you but then you'll never feel happiness or love, or those warm fuzzy feelings again. I wonder if is worth it to lose all of those feelings in order not to be ever hurt again. 


this week has been, by far, one of he most interesting weeks of the year, i guess. suddenly its as if someone has chucked a huge amount of responsibility on my shoulders but then thats okay, cause i like how life is now, well was, until a few hours ago. But i know for a fact that in a few months, maybe life wouldn't be as peaceful as it is now. 


well, lets sum up my week. I don't remember much, since i had such a busy week. ._. But i remember on tuesday the kogarah trains chucked a delayed bitch at me. The train i took arrived at redfern at the time a train that would have left kogarah 2 trains after the train i took. I was so pissed cause by the time i arrived a Town Hall it was like 3:11 D< 


Then on wednesday I went with Gina to Pitt/Park Street maccas to do homework. We ended up eating like 2 soft serves each and all this other food. SO UNHEALTHY D: I was supposed to do latin but like omg, in the end i just gave up cause the sentence was so painful translate. And to think i have a test Tuesday week ): sigh sigh, I told my teacher to put it next term but noo, he must put it on the last week of school =o= talking about school, term 1 is ending soon. wow, time really does fly. Just like that term one is gone. I still remember clearly the first few days before he start of term one. All those memories seem as if they just happened yesterday. Then i went back home at like 8 cause i wandered around the city and went and looked in the "kpop store" at china town. I actually dont know the proper name for hat store..but like yeah LOL, everyone just knows it as the 'kpop store' in english haha.


THURSDAY! woop dee doo, my birthday :3 I turned 15 and yeah omg oldie to the max =o=" I SHALL NEVER BE 14 AGAINANANANANANANAN. I must say the last 6 months being 14 were literally so far one of the best periods in my life. well, I guess the day didn't really get special special until halfway through. The weather was so fucking gloomy, it put me into this whole gloomy mood and nothing was really 'happy happy happy' I mean when is someone's birthday is usually like "OMGGG HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAYAYAYAYAYAAAY" yeah well thanks to the shit weather it wasn't. But i had a pretty good start to my morning. bwahahaha. I got off at kogarah and waited with Shahana and Maisah for Angela cause all my friends were already at school, and they were all wondering what the massive box i was holding was for and stuff. They were so clueless and i just kept confusing them. Then Angela comes and she's like "HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAAAAY" yeaah. LOL. The look on Maisah and Shahana's faces were like priceless. lolololol. Then at school, I guess you can say I was attacked by happy birthday greetings etc. Another reason why things weren't really special until halfway through the day cause i was running around the school trying to sort out my shit for Silver Duke of sped Ed. but yeah lol. Then at recess my friends sang happy birthda to me and handed out cupcakes. It was so cold though omg. Cause of the shitty weather but yeah. I left the massive box i was carrying earlier in the office cause i knew it would be safe there and then no one would touch it and it was heavy. Plus It was so big, my teachers would have told me off and i had double science and its not safe leaving something so precious outside the lab o: 
Then a lunch, i picked up the box from the office and took it to room 8 and started to open it. yenno whats pretty funny, half my group was more excited about me opening ronny's massive box of presents than me opening the one my group gave me....lol... well at least thats what i thought because i had this mini crowd and then everyone started screaming etc etc. yeah..... well, i guess thats when things started to get interesting har har har. I must say, the weather really did suck cause like, the next day on the friday, it was fucking sunny as shit. I'm just like. are you fucking kidding me? anyways, yeah everyone was like OMG SKJLKDSJFLDSFHDKJHGLKDSJ AAHHH when tammy was like "i think saw a crystal box" But yeah ahahaha. :3 then i went into pe after class. And i must say that was pretty bludge cause i had he massive box on my table and i was just playing games on my iphone behind it while listening to the pdhpe speechs. but omfg, apparently there's a phobia of an erected penis. so fucking funny. LOLOLOLOL. But yeah, im so happy i haven't done my speech yet. HURRAY FOR VOLUNTEERS! (Y) Then i had careers, out teacher wasn't here so we pretty much just bludged and played games for the whole period. IT WAS SO FUN. :3 best way to end off a "birthday school day" cause at first it was like "YES PLAY RED BEARD." But last week in careers i like failed at hat game so in he end i was like "FUCKYEAH DISNEY CHANNEL GAMES" Then everyone started to play. Kitty and I were like reminiscing primary school memories LOL. We were both like "omg we used to play this in primary school, everytime we went into a computer room omg omg" yeah LOLOL. It was such a fun period. We all playing his lilo and stich game click for the game! IT WAS SO FUN. And we were all trying to see who collected the most experiments and we were all shouting like "FUEL FUEL I NEED FUEL, OMG IM RUNNING OUT OF FUEL, YES FUEL!" yeah lol... my friends and i are pretty cool. :D 


Then in the afternoon my bb picked me up from school :D and went home with me. Before going home we went to matt's to pick up the presents he and isara got for me. IT WAS SO HEAVY. SO MANY BOOKS. but yeah. walking home was pretty painful considering all the heaviness of the presents and all but yeah. man. having an empty house is the best. I wonder what would life be if it all the wishes/crap i make up in my head come true. Honestly. Life would be so great. Too bad there's something called reality. -_____-" after dumping the stuff at my house and mucking around for a bit, off to dinner in he city! I swear, i am never seeing anyone change their contacts again without a mirror. They start tearing up and then a tear falls out and then yeah. SO DEPRESSING. ): -mecreys- bwahahaha, sushi for dinner for the win :3 I swear, mini hot pot cooking things are so dangerous when you don't know how to use it >___<" OMG TAKOYAKI BAALLLSLSLLSLSLSL <33333333333333333333333333333333 I swear i want one of hose machines at home. Eating them are so nice. Its pretty much just like, melt in mouth feeling. so so so nice *___* I swear eating a beno box at fujiya is pretty much one of the most filling meals you can eat. After eating you're just like omg, i feel like im three monhs pregnant D:  either way, feeling full or not i went to chatime to get MY FREE BIRTHDAY CHATIME YE YE YE YE. First ime getting a free drink on my birthday. Damn it felt special. other than the fact drinking it with a full stomach was like sickening kinda. :L But i was fine afterwards. But man. so so so so full. but yeah BEST BIRTHDAY EVEERRR. it was a fun day. besides all the glooominess of the shit ass weather. Thank you everyone for the presents :3 -look down- 


Well today being a friday was suppose to be a good day cause its like "FUCK YEAH END OF SCHOOL WEEK." i actually hate weekends but okay... So i kicked off the day with 3 laps of cross country. man, im so fucking unfit. Last year i managed to jog the whole 5 laps. This year i didn't even manage to jog the 3 lap. farking hell. I like stopped and walked a part of it. 7:06 mins for 1.2km. SO UNFITTITITIITTTT ): but yeah fucking hell. It was like major killer. My head throbbed like fuck afterwards. I swear. And next i have 4 laps next wednesday. OH SO FUN. ): Then i had my first history test! It wasn't that bad, since we did practice essays before hand and i pretty much attacked my history teacher with questions the day before. But i realised i didn' address the question in my introduction. oh so lovely. TT" But i guess is alright, ish. Cause im pretty sure i did pretty well context wise etc. Plus its not like I'm gonna do history next year..i dont think. I DON'T KNOW WHAT SUBJECTS TO CHOOSE MAN OMG. so little units, so many subjects i wanna take. Then at night Nato came over for a sleepover. fuck man, im gonna like attack that faggot next time i see her. She suggested to have a high school musical marathon. NOW MY LITTLE SISTER WONT FREAKING STOP WATCHING HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL ): why so annoying for. all i hear at home is "WE'RE BREAKING FREEEE SOARRRRRRGINNNNNNNNGGGGGGG FLYYYYYYYINGGG" yeap... T____T" omg and sabbie made me a peanut butter and jam sandwich today. Her lunches are the best. They're so prettily made and so perfect and neat. Cause i swear sabby has this some sort of OCD.... LOL. im only joking :3 


well today, i woke up and went out to make myself a bank account for my job. I hope i get to start working soon! so so excited + money + it'll take my mind of things. Cause once i start working, my time for homework shortens so i can't procrastinate as much. also cause it'll exhaust me out. The more exhausted i am the better i feel. I hate feeling lively and happy. Its just not me. especially with so much on my mind. I found out something i would have been better without knowing today. in one of the worse ways possible too. -sigh- ohwells. i chucked my fit in the afternoon. I swear these days, i can never manage to hold back crying. skjdlaksldskkdjfkjdf. every little thing is like -cry- then its like omg fuckin sjdslkjflsdfg -cry- yeah. fml. but i've found a rather more personal place to rant my feelings out to now so ya ya ya =o=


everyones leaving me these days I dont know why. Maybe cause they're sick of me, or obviously im not the first person on their priority list and so they don't bother making time for me, but i dont know. i just feel as if no one's really here anymore except for one person. But then i guess that one person is enough as long as they don't leave too. But seriously, i have never felt so lonely or worthless. yeah im just an emotional wreck.


anyways my rooms so pretty now! I've rearranged all my shelves and stuff and now all i have to do its clean up a little more and fix my wall. Which i'll hopefully get done soon ish but yeah kekekekeke. :3 yeah anyways ignore my stunned ass face. Nato took the picture whilst i was putting on my socks. =o= but i must say my calves look good in the photo LOLOLOLOLOLOL. but yeah isn't my shelf pretty ahhahaa, I wonder what im gonna do with my soft toys when i get more books cause my top 3 shelves are full of books already D: oh and nato did my hair today. Its in such nice soft waves. :3 I love it when my hair's like that. too bad i don't think i can go it on my own. But omg. this morning when she tried to fix it the temperature was on too high and my hair got like burnt. It smells like cookies now T^T anyways toodles~ I got an english essay and latin notes to write D: